My March tarot card was the Knight of Pentacles reversed (again from the Anima Mundi tarot deck). The message for this month was: Do you need greater self-discipline and commitment to achieve your goals? Instead of trying new things or dreaming up more ideas, the reversed Knight of Pentacles encourages you to establish a schedule or routine for yourself and stick to it until you have completed your assigned task. The reversed Knight of Pentacles may also point to a journey of self-development or improvement, in which a routine will support your success. This card also cautions: perhaps you have become unadventurous, overly conservative and resistant to change. You may prefer just to stay at home while others are out having fun and taking risks. There’s nothing wrong with a quiet night in; however, you may be isolating yourself from others or losing the interest of your friends. Try to get out more and be open to new experiences. The crystals I pulled are rose quartz, mookaite, and celestite.
March started with me feeling a sense of being behind. Like I hadn’t really gotten started on my goals for the year, that I wasn’t really making progress. One of the accounts I follow on Instagram posted and said that it was a good time to clear your altar. That even if that’s all you have energy for, go clear your altar. So, I did that and it helped. It helped to feel like I could start from here and move forward.
After I cleared my altar, I reset it for Ostara. I included clear quartz, desert jasper, my selenite wand, an egg (that looks like it could be a form of jasper too), and a feather. Oh, and of course my Ostara piece I stitched.
I was talking with some friends about our high school days and being goth in a sea of normalcy. We talked about the clothes and jewelry we wore along with the music we listened to. I got to thinking about a poison ring I used to have and so I went digging through my jewelry to see if by some miracle I still had it. Didn’t find it, but I did find some other pieces that were a bit of a blast from the past. Of course, what used to fit on my ring finger now only fits on my pinkie but that’s what thirty years will do to you. So, I found a pentagram ring, a lapis ring, and a rose quartz ring that was given to me by a high school boyfriend. It’s pale pale rose quartz and reminds me of what Bloodmilk calls “ghost rose quartz”.
No idea if I’ll start regularly wearing these again, but they were nice to revisit. And while we were on the subject, I also came across my old moto jacket while we were cleaning out our coat closet. It hasn’t fit in years and at one point I was just going to get rid of it, but now I’m glad I didn’t. Maybe, hopefully, eventually I’ll be able to get into it again. And I would love to wear it. This jacket was something I really wanted, that my parents refused to buy me, but that I saved up and bought for myself. I seem to recall it was $200 which took me a long time to scrape together. I bought it at one of the goth shops in downtown Dallas near Fair Park.
For now, I’ve got this as my inspiration…
March also brought the opportunity to sign up for a new series with Professor of Words. She decided to do the ACOTAR (aka A Court of Thorns and Roses) series by Sarah J. Maas and I could not sign up fast enough. We’re doing them every other week to give people the opportunity to read the next book before the discussion.
We had the first discussion on A Court of Thorns and Roses and it was really good. We had four or five people, so it was a good mix of people. We also did A Court of Mist and Fury (which is my favorite in the series) in March. For this one there were only two of us signed up, but it was fine. It made it more intimate and with some of the discussion about trauma and PTSD, etc. it was really good to feel like we were in a safe environment. And I have to say that I could get in a Facebook group and discuss these books any day of the week, but what I love about Susan’s discussions is that she does all this research and she brings all this experience about literature and fairy tales and writing styles and it just makes the whole thing that much more than just talking about books I love.
The ACOWAR discussion was on the very last day of March and it was again just the three of us, which was perfect. Great discussion. Looking forward to the next one.
I purchased this book, The Hearth Witch, from a friend who was clearing out some of her books. Eric and I have been working on cleaning and it got me thinking that maybe there’s something to me being drawn to Hestia as a goddess archetype, beyond the ritual piece. And there’s that part of me that has always believed that your outside world is a reflection of your inner world and your home is a direct correlation to your own energy. Hell, I wanted to create a whole career/business out of that idea. (And maybe I still could, a small voice whispers.) But, then I started thinking that maybe part of my clearing process this year is to get my home in order. As I’m working on my inner self, and losing weight, maybe one of my big goals needs to be around getting my house clean and getting a whole routine in place and making that part of my sacred ritual. And that by focusing on that, it might help me with the inside too – the consistency, the ritual, the small steps leading to bigger things. So, the more I thought about it, the more I decided that this feels right. Which seems strange – wanting to clean, wanting to focus on getting the house in order – but it also feels really right. So I bought the book and hopefully there will be something in there that turns on the light for me.
The big news for the month was the arrival of my newest Bloodmilk piece. I ordered this back in December as a way to celebrate the release of my Sarah Ann Banton sampler. This is the Planchette Moth (the bottom wings are in the shape of planchettes) and I chose to get it in moonstone. I absolutely adore it and I’m so pleased with it.
I’m also back on my bullshit of trying to take better care of my skin again, so I dug this charcoal mask out of my bathroom cabinet and decided to give it a try. It’s actually super easy to put the mask on, do my weekly cleaning on the bathroom, and then wash this off. So, if it’s easy maybe I’ll actually do it. I did like it. We’ll see if repeated use helps at all.
Eric also gifted me this beautiful Medusa pendant. I love that it looks like a cameo until you get right up on it and see that she has snakes for hair. We don’t often buy gifts for each other, so when he does it’s really special and this one was especially thoughtful. It’s now got me wanting to read a book with Medusa. And, I’ll leave you with something Gala Darling posted today: being hot is fun, but acting hot will change your life.